After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises …
After a while you learn…
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
Jorge Luis Borges, You Learn (via pullingmetowardsmyself)
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
NOT BORGES NOT BORGES NOT BORGES(via petradactyl)
Naglagay ako ng band-aid kahit walang sugat.
para sa daliri kong panulat.
para walang kalyo.
Pero ngayon hinahanap ko ang sugat.
yung sakit na mararamdaman mo kapag pinisil
ang dilaw na nasa gitna ng bandaid.
walang sakit. pero dapat meron.
walang hapdi, pero sana meron.
parang hindi tama. parang walang dating.
dahil minsan masaya pa rin ang konting sakit.
yung tama lang; para maramdaman mong buhay ka pa.
hindi rin pala talaga masaya ang masyadong maingat.
In more or less a week, 2 very close colleagues of mine will be moving on with the new chapters of their career life. Although I’m genuinely happy for them for having found such an opportunity, I’m still a bit sad that they won’t be around anymore whenever things get a little tough here in the office.
Just to give a little more perspective on this outright dramatic/cheesy post, Grace and Kirby are 2 of my favorite people here. (Sister-in-law/boss and brother not included). See, for the 3+ years I’ve known them, they brought impact in my life. Here’s how it will go. I will write them a friendster testimonial, para mas corny, with the hopes na maiiyak sila sa post ko, kahit imposible dahil medyo pusong bato sila.. sa akin. hahaha
Let’s talk about Kirby. Kirby was the 3rd man in our small research team then. He entered the company 4 months after I was signed. At first, I was not exactly at ease with him. I thought it would take time before you’d get to be comfortable with him. BUT, it actually didn;t/ when he started dancing in our small pantry, singing different birit songs, lalapit sa desk mo sabay kembot, going to your desk the minute you open your tortillos— you just get that feeling this person is not really hard to get along with. Kirby is Kirby. And he usually just does whatever he wants if he’s comfortable with you. Rap, sing, dance, etc. What i’ll miss most is probably the most hypothetical questions that he’ll ask. As in hypothetical talaga! I mean, how would you answer a question with Charice Pempengco’s face and World Peace in one question? THAT HYPOTHETICAL. and somehow, it just makes the day better. ikaw ba naman hindi ngingiti pag kumanta na si Kirby ng “Ba’t kamukha mo si fraguda?” to the tune of whatever song he thinks of? There are times that I dont want to be his friend— mga 2 times na muntik na niya ako laglag. NSFW yung reason. Seriously though, this person cracks me up— every time.
Now we go to Grace. And where do I even begin? Grace made huge HUGE impact in my life. She came in a year after us. Again, I was hesitant to befriend her. Whoever here thinks Grace is not masungit is a huge liar. Because she is! But once you get to know her more, once you get under her skin, parang protected ka na sa lahat ng problema. She’s that type of person— one who’ll fight for people and things she love (eg food) til the end! Grace was also the person who convinced me to finally go to law school. “Why not enter now while you still have the means?” That was the clincher line that made me suddenly go to my school end enroll and start with classes 5 days after. Hindi madaling mawalan ng Grace Uruttia sa office. She knows almost everything I’ve gone through the past 3 years. If we all had that one friend who’ll reprimand you for doing stupid things in the name of love, who’ll equally laugh at you for nonsense things and who knows your very complicated fetish (lol) then she’s probably that friend to me. Ang hindi ko malilimutan kay Grace ay ‘yung araw na sinend niya sa akin ang kadiring picture ng sugat niya. at ng sugat ni Solenn. At ng iba pang mga retrato na nakakatakot/nakakadirng bagay. Here’s how it goes: she’ll send me a link at dahil good friend ako, inoopen ko agad yung link kasi I trust her. Tapos kadiri pala yung laman. or, she’ll send it outright on imessage para walang kawala. Bubulaga kagad sa screen mo yung ingrone niya. What the fuck diba. What a friend. But I know I can count on her any time. So that’s reassuring. Lastly and probably the most important thing I learned from Grace is this: DREAMS DO COME TRUE. LITERAL. :D
I will Definitely miss these guys. I wish you both good luck sa bago niyong careers. At buti nalang malapit lang kayo sa bahay. Madali ko kayong magagambala (pag may time ako).
The objective was mapaiyak ko kayo, but somehow there’s dust in my eyes right now while typing these. di ko nga alam san galing eh! :)
What we do best.
Keep moving up, guys!
ps. hindi ko alam kung pano kayo itag dito pero alam ko makikita niyo naman to kasi tumblr-freaks kayo. :)
pps. ililibre niyo pa ako sa brick fire. or spiral. haha!
(photo credits: from Roan’s ata haha)